I wanted to continue a bit with my last posting (Fearless Inventory reveals Safety Girl, Feb 16/09) about security, safety (that’s me, the Safety Girl), and boundaries and letting go of those boundaries because i had a rather interesting experience this week.
I started working part time at a shop last week (the place I was thinking was my dream job – and it may be but not quite yet) where I’m doing readings. I had planned to go in yesterday because I had left my lunch there (it had my banana cake in it, with cream cheese icing, and no way was I leaving it there to go bad, fridge or no fridge) and had wanted to pick it up. I had originally planned on going today (Wed) but my day yesterday ended up being only a half day of work so I was off in the afternoon.
After trudging my way to the bus stop in Kensington, from downtown (and it was trudging, let me tell you), finally making it home (I missed the bus by a minute), eating the lunch I’d made to eat at the office (mmm, chickpea salad) and reading a good book, I headed to bed for a nap (still trudging here), thinking, it’s ok, I’ll go tomorrow to the shop. I read for about 25 minutes and it came in to my head, that I really needed to go to the shop as soon as possible.
So, I jumped up, threw on some nicer clothes (I’d changed from work when I’d gotten home) and headed out, road raging all the way because all of the sudden I needed to get somewhere in a hurry and everyone in front of me was driving slow. Thank goodness, no accidents and no tickets; I guess the gods, and apparently, my grandmother, were looking out for me. So, finally made it to the shop. Lunch was still intact and the shop owner and one of the other ladies that works there were talking about someone who was coming to do some work.
Ok. Who believes in kismet? Coincidence? Things happening for a reason? This lady (we’ll call her CC for now, as I don’t have her permission yet to mention her name), CC, had called in as she was looking to join the shop and make her services in Belief Re-Patterning (TM, developed by Suze Casey, MEd) available to the public. She had called earlier that morning or something to make a “test” appointment (she was to do a test run, sort an interview, for the owner, to see how she would best fit in) then had called back a bit later to move the appointment back to 3 pm.
Lo, and behold, here I come walking in, at about 2:45pm, saying I had to be here today, and what’s going on? the owner didn’t really want to sit that day for the exercise, wasn’t feeling up to it or something and so she decided that I should take the appointment. So, there I was when CC walked in; we got settled and started our session. We sat in chairs facing each other, she with her hand on my knee.
The basic principle behind the Belief Re-patterning (TM) is to release beliefs that no longer serve us or that limit us in some way (you can read more about it on the website – see the end of the post for that). There are lots of limiting beliefs – I’ve talked about some of those here: beliefs about boundaries and safety, for example. I do some belief release work in my healing practice as well so was curious about this different process.
it uses muscle testing to determine what beliefs, emotions, etc need to be addressed. We started with my arm and it was not cooperating at all (wouldn’t really give us a straight answer) so we switched to using my hand, which did give us clear answers.
We started with OUTRAGE, and moved our way through several steps, quite rapidly, to the point where I was stating that I am collected and peaceful in all situations in my life. We passed through forgiving myself for believing that others know my truth better than me (those parents!!) and through choosing, freedom, and a few other steps that while seemingly rapid, were quite profound. At different points I was breathing pretty heavy to clear what was sticking in my chest, crying, speechless because I couldn’t say the words that I needed to say to go through the “point” in the process, and near the end, holding myself straight in my chair, still breathing heavy, out of sheer pride, because I wanted to throw myself onto the ground and wail with fear and pain at the feelings that were coming through and at how difficult it was to break the belief and build new ones. I was also dizzy through a large part of the second half.
I’ve seen all of these things in my own healing practice and have experienced variations of them in my own release process through other healing modalities (EFT, Healing Touch, Energy Medicine, NLP, shamanist healing, etc). However, in my sessions, other than EFT, which I had only ever done on my own, it usually took about an hour to 2 hours, sometimes longer, to get to the end point, or the closing point for the session. I have always experienced a shift, in every session, some faster than others, but rarely I think, in such a far reaching manner.
My session with CC took about 20 minutes from start to finish. I am blown away, still, now, as I write about it. I could see the ramifications of what we were doing touching, literally, on all of the stuff I had been working on the last couple of weeks, about boundaries, about safety, about moving forward, on things that I had been struggling with my whole life. 20 bloody minutes.
Only 1 other time can I remember the clarity that I had in this session and that came after someone, who had a great deal of negative influence in my life, died. I had this person in my life for my entire life, and by the end of the weekend (I heard on Friday of the death), I had such clarity and could see how that person had affected me in everything in my life, and it was such a profound relief to me that they had passed that I was almost a completely different person come Monday. It was pretty amazing. This was similar and in only 20 minutes.
is everyone going to have this kind of shift? Well, I hope so. However, as with all healing work, sometimes the shift will be subtle, and other times, big, and other times physically demanding, and other times, a happy experience. Each person, believe me, will get what they need out of each session they go to provided they go with the intent to shift and move things and let go of stuff.
When I talk about doing the fearless inventory, of looking at your stuff, the outcome, ideally, is this kind of clarity. It won’t always be that way but if you are persistent in working to resolve your stuff, you will have these moments. And believe me, they are worth it.
I can easily say that I am grateful for my earlier experiences, however difficult they were, so that I could have such clarity and grace now, when I see the light, and have experienced the release.
So, now I have a new weapon in my arsenal, against my stuff. I recommend it but not everyone will want it that way. Some will want to get on a table and go that route – go in whatever route calls to you. There are many options out there.
Be at peace, and may you have clarity,
With love and light,
Info: Belief Re-patterning (TM) website: http://www.beliefrepatterning.com
Check it out, read up on it. If you want to see the practitioner I did, send me an email (below) and I’ll get her full info for you. She is a practitioner, and I believe she is listed on the website, but let me know as I’ll get confirmed information.
The shop I work at is called Angels, Guides, & Spirits, 403-264-3576 in Calgary.
Questions or Comments: Please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org