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The Odyssey

There is something freeing and life defining, or releasing, about getting your hair done.  And I do mean done, not just cut, or washed, or trimmed, or having your colour touched up (although that washing sure is lovely). By done, I mean re-designed.  And it doesn’t have to be majorly radical but it might be highlights in a different colour or using a completely different colour altogether, or the classic – actually cutting your hair! And I don’t imagine it’s just women who feel that way;  I imagine men feel that way too sometimes, although it may not be about a haircut.

I realized this the other day when I was sitting at work waiting to go and get my hair done.  My hair has been pretty low maintenance the last few years – home colour and trims as it was long with perm in it and I didn’t need to do much but trim out the perm as I cut it shorter.  But I also hadn’t made that much effort to find a new stylist as my old hair stylist who, for 6 or 7 years, knew me and my hair very well, left the province a few years ago (which sucked but I understood).   Her move sort of started the whole growing out process and frankly the move into the lowest maintenance hair I could get.

But I decided, partly in anticipation of summer, partly out of boredom, partly out of annoyance about my roots showing and not wanting to colour it again myself, that I need to get my hair done.  I was also thinking I would just do a trim on my hair, maybe add a few layers but nothing major.  And I’ve been known for major hair changes in the past.

All day though, as I waited until 245, I was kinda down.  It felt like something was ending and I was feeling kind of sad about it. Rather sentimental, I suppose, and frankly , very nervous as I’d never been to this particular before (although she came highly recommended) as I was having something major done (layers cut in, at least, and this too can go badly, believe me).  However, luckily, the ladies I was working with distracted me a bit near the end so it came quickly without too many nerves;  I even entered the chopping block a titch late.

So, after this and that, 2 hours later, there I was looking at myself in the mirror.  The stylist had reassured me when I initially went in as she told me she had been thinking about my colour the night before and what we should do.  So, there I was, done.  The hair was red, the shape was similar to what I had had, there were millions of layers in it, the style was funky and hip, and I thought, I’m back.

So, what did I discover through my hair odyssey?  I have high maintenance hair.  And the funky bright sytle and colour are actually a refelction of me, as well.  And although I really like low maintenance hair (a subjective classificaiton, belive me)  I suppose it’s also a reflection that I believe am worth the work and that I do deserve to look good. Translation, I deserve good things and am worthy of them as well.

So, kids, what do you need to do to remind you that you’re worth it and that you deserve all the good things the universe has to offer?

With love and light,

Jenn

C’s or Q’s?  Email me at wyldvynes@yahoo.ca

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Where did my blankie go?

You know when you were a kid, and you reached a point in your childhood when you decided it was time to grow up and put away your blankie? That one thing that you always had with you, or kept in your bed, that kept you sane and stable when all around you seemed to be going mad because, well, first of all, everything was happening 3 feet higher than you, and sometimes there was yelling or crying or just loud noises or laughing, or people you didn’t know or, the classic, smelled funny?

Maybe you didn’t have one but I did. I remember when I put my blankie away the first time. And now I still have one – but it looks oddly like a stuffed animal . . . regardless, I realized this week that I have been neglecting a much needed blankie for me, and one that I hope is also providing hope and support to some of you out there. As soon as things were shifting around (such as my friends leaving, and me getting the dream job that I had been asking for), and moving forward, adn getting better, I dropped that blog/blankie like a hot potato.

So, shame on me – I am doing the best I can but I know that I can do better now. I do need to keep contributing to my blog, because, well, even if there isn’t anyone out there reading it, I need to express it somehow. Yes, that’s me, I’m all about the sharing . . . 😉

But seriously, in a manner of speaking, I forgot where I came from and I’m pretty sure that’s ok. Sometimes it’s good to do that, at least for a while, until you’re ready to go back and look at the dark times but I think, for me anyway, it’s important for to remember that this is here because the dark times cycle in and out, and transitions always occur, some easier than others (where are those margaritas??) but there will always be change. And now, there can always be blog . . .

I’m terrible at journaling.  I have journals started all over the place with the intent to get my stuff out and I haven’t always been keen on the blog scene because I’ve heard that many sites are just private diaries – not into reality shows, thanks, my own is pretty wild enough.  So, for my own sake, I need to blog, I guess, instead of journal. But I talk things out when I’m trying to figure things out:   I just start talking: “if this, then this” type-of-thing, kind of like brainstorming but with my voice rather than a pen, so at least this way, on a blog, I can still talk and mumble, but I’m not confusing the hell out of my roommate . . . and people might not think I’m quite so nuts. . . (well, that might not happen).

It’s all good. But for those of you who have put your blankie down, the thing that got you through the bad times . . . what do you need to remember about it? Do you need to let it go, do you need to know that you can let it go when you need to and stand on your own?  Do you need to realize that it is still a valuable tool and that you need to incorporate it into your everyday routine?

Hopefully you aren’t coping with your transitions with abuses, and if so, please ask for some help – there are many options out there, but we all find something to help us cope and to get through the tough times; but if you’ve gotten through, or are getting through, instead of running away at high speed from your (non-destructive) coping mechanism, what do you need to take from it? What did you learn from it? What can you share with others, from your own experience?

And then take those answers and lessons and resolutions and hold them up like the badges of honour that they are because we all need some way that’s positive and supportive to get through the tough times. Those mechanisms that keep us going forward in the rough times help us be the hero in each of our own stories.  And sometimes our story can help someone else be the hero in their own story or gives them hope about getting back into the light and back on path so  I  think it’s important to share when and how you’ve met your challenge.  And it let’s us all know that we’re not alone in the dark, ever.

And treat yourself with care; you are a limited edition, one-of-a-kind masterpiece and someone out there (if not many someones) really wants you to be around with them.

So, the blankie is on the wall now . . or is the blankie on the blog now . . .

With love and light,
Jenn

Qs or Cs? Email me at wyldvynes@yahoo.ca

Not sure how to move ahead or to start or finish a transition? EFT helped me a great deal and with many things and someone has probably tried using it on an issue similar to yours – they say to try it on everything; the manual is even free! Check out the website at http://www.emofree.com.
There are many resources out there to help you through any situation. Please take advantage of them. Hugs, jenn

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Spring Clearing

Now, Spring Clearing (or cleaning) is not a new thing, is it? It’s something that we get the urge to do when the days get longer, and the air gets warmer, and when there is that nice breeze going so you can air out your house and get all that stale winter air out of there.
But it’s also about clearing out your own “stuff” too, the stuff that no longer serves you: old habits, old beliefs, old anger, old attachments, etc.

I hadn’t really thought about it other than in terms of rotating some of my clothes and getting my capris cleaned up so I could start to wear them to work (I love capris – I would love to live in a place where I could wear them all year round). But as I was boasting to my roommate yesterday, that although I hadn’t left the house, neither had I spent my whole day sitting on the couch reading, but had been going through my closet trying to clear it out a bit and put away a bunch of stuff that I’ve been setting aside to deal with, she popped out with – it’s spring cleaning time, Jenn – and not just for clothing!(yes, she’s a healer and intuitive too).

So, here I am. And what makes a good spring clearing?

Well, first of all, set the intent that you are going to move out those things that no longer serve you, whether it’s old clothing, flannel sheets, old magazines or papers, or old beliefs and attachments.

Next, set yourself up to clear things out completely so that you aren’t just moving stuff around. For example, set up your recycling and garbage bins, set up a give-away box, and start putting things in those bins first. Once they are full, put them outside, or into bags, or into the car for takeaway as soon as possible.

How do you determine what is to be disposed of?
Well, does it still serve you? Or, do you still love it, or love it now? If not, get rid of it.
For example: Does the belief that you need triplicate of your paperwork really serve you or can you put some things onto your computer? Does the belief that you have to eat dinner in order to get dessert still serve you? Do you still need 12 sets of sheets? Does spending every Wednesday night listening to all your girlfriends complain about their jobs really still work for you? Do all those negative thoughts that keep running through your head still really support your growth? Are those expectations you have of that person really reasonable or are they something you need to re-evaluate? How much energy are you wasting doing something you don’t want to do (including work)?

If it’s something you need, is there a proper place for it (i.e. filing or laundry)? Can you pack something away? Do you really need it if it needs to be packed away?
Shouldn’t something you really need be something you use on a regular basis? (And no,we’re not talking taxes here – you need 7 years worth of that stuff hanging around – or at least accessible). So, not counting taxes, if it’s a belief system, shouldn’t it be a belief that works for you on a regular basis as opposed to only once a year or for something that happened years ago that someone else defined for you?

Sometimes you may not be ready to let go of something, and that’s ok, but if you’re holding on to something out of habit rather than out of care or respect for YOURSELF, maybe it’s time to take a look at it, or at least put it on the agenda for review. This may also be a good time to find a neutral party to help you sort through that old stuff and send it on its way, someone like a healer, or reader, if you’d rather, to help pinpoint those things you need to look at.

Overall though, even clearing out your closet releases energy and gives you more energy in your living space, both exterior and interior, so whatever you decide to clean out, or keep, remember, do you really need it? They (who is that anyway??) always say, you need to make room in order to receive more.

And with all that’s going on in the bigger picture right now, with the economy and the feeling on everyone’s part that something needs to change, this is a good time to focus on what parts of your life still work for you, and what parts don’t anymore.

And, while you’re doing your clearing, how about moving out that little thing your Auntie Em gave you way back when that you never use . . . I’m sure someone could use it . . . somewhere . . . 🙂

So, happy spring clearing!

With Love and Light,
jenn

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Monday, April 13

Well, as usual, I had a topic but forgot about it. Oh, well, I’m sure we’ll get something out of this one.
Hope everyone had a good Easter – I know mine was busy cooking and getting lots of things done so I didn’t get as much downtime as I would have liked. Oh, well. But this does remind me of a topic . . .

Last week was the full moon (9th) and of course, Easter. Easter, no matter your religion or beliefs, is about rising – a new rising, as something greater than before. When there is that much energy surrounding an event, it does spill out and create it’s own history, without even the people attached – or so I believe. It’s like a tidal wave, I guess. Also, like a self-fulfilling prophecy – the more you try not to think about something, the more it comes to you; or the more people believe in something, the more likely it is to happen.

Anyway, I was talking to a few people last week and was noticing how fast things were moving around in my own schedule. And what was interesting was that almost everyone I spoke to talked about something changing – something big changing, and shifting. Whether it was moving homes, breaking up, getting ready to start another job, moving to be more dedicated to looking after themselves, etc. Everyone was talking about it. I felt it too – aside from some job opportunities that came up (not followed through yet on everything), I could feel a balance beginning – like something settling into place (the image I had was of a pendulum coming back and settling at center). Balance is always something I’ve had to work for – and now that I’ve been doing lots of healing on myself, I’m beginning to feel, and see, that I have it.

On top of the Full Moon, and the Rising (the Phoenix), the new starts, there is 2009 – as the astrologers will say – something about Capricorn and moving forward (I don’t know for sure – you’ll have to talk to an astrologist) but as much as the moves have started – finding meaning in one’s life, and making time for more significant things, people are continuing to grow and expand their awareness and it’s very exciting to see.

So, my advice to you is, if you’re shifting, and you are changing, and you’re not sure what’s going on, take some quiet time, do some slow deep breathing with some nice music in a comfortable position, connect to your Higher Self (your soul, without the human condition attached) and ask what is going on. Is it in your best interests, even though it’s scary as all hell? Yes, it is. So, take a deep breath, and hold on for the ride. Trust that you’ve set up your life for yourself the way it will best serve you to learn those lessons and grow. And if you’re blocking – find a healer, or ask for healing from your guides and angels, and ask them to move out any blockages, quickly, smoothly, and most of all, gently. They will help. You are never alone, so ask them to show you they are with you, too; be patient with that though – it takes time to see differently.

You will get through this, just as we all will.

With love and light,
Jenn

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Fearless Inventory reveals Safety Girl

Have you ever heard the term “fearless inventory”? And no, I’m not talking about counting all those dust and cobweb-covered (ooh, the spiders!) cans in the back corner. It’s a term that has floated around for a while with different programs out there and it’s really both interesting and not a little unsettling.

As I recall, taking a “fearless inventory” means looking at all of your “stuff”, both your light “stuff” and your dark “stuff” (but mostly your dark “stuff”) without blinders on, without fooling yourself about it but also without judging yourself for it. It means looking at all that stuff and either fixing it or making reparations for it, then accepting it and making the effort and the commitment to not do it again and to move on and learn from it. It’s unsettling because it means admitting to yourself and sometimes others that you were wrong in your behaviour, in your belief and maybe even your boundaries. It may also mean looking at other events that occurred in your life that are painful and confusing and in looking at the boundaries that arose from those events. So, unsettling could be putting it mildly.

Taking this inventory, maybe not entirely, but certainly regarding some of my behaviours that I have been recently wallowing in, is what I’ve been doing for the last couple of weeks. I’ve been looking at them (my behaviours and habits) and looking at what I can do to make reparation for them and in the effort, grow as a person. This also has the added benefit of working towards making myself a clearer vessel both to channel energy for healing and readings but also to channel more positive things for myself (like a regular income) and to others. And i can see light at the end of the tunnel.

I can see changes in my behaviour and how things affect me but growth is an ever upward-spiraling event so we address different aspects of the same things over and over again, clearing our vibrational levels as we go through each experience again, and again. So, there is growth and change and it is sometimes faster than other times but it does happen even if we can’t seem to see movement – so again, back to unsettling, and so it should be. But there is growth and while you may not always be able to see it, others will and eventually you’ll feel the difference inside you when you make a decision about something and it’s a different decision that what you would have done before. This is redefining your boundaries and it comes from taking this “fearless inventory”.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s easy to talk about boundaries but sometimes it’s very difficult to figure out your own and to figure out when you need to set some and release others.

The stuff that I have been most recently trying to figure out is about why I’m so territorial, why other peoples’ noise bothers me so much, why the little things get to me, why I remember almost every slight ever done to me and why people on this earth are here to torment me (only slightly egocentric), or more specifically, what lesson is it that I am to learn from these experiences? As a “cancer” in the astrological show, my tendencies include being oversensitive and living in the past. So, we’re back to overcoming my nature and I’ve been trying to look at it objectively, being honest about it but not beating myself up about it (tapping (EFT) has been helping a lot here).

And I think I’ve figured it out, finally. At least, for me.

Those things, territoriality, annoyed by little things, they are about safety. It’s about having boundaries in a physical way (rules) when you don’t trust that you have the strength, or more likely, courage, to address those boundary issues at the time they actually arise. And in the past, I was not able to address some boundary issues so I suppose it makes sense. I was too shy, too embarrassed, too ashamed, etc, to speak to anyone about things or as I got older, but not necessarily calmer, I was too abrupt and rude about it because I was scared silly of saying anything at all so when I finally got the guts to say anything, I was so angry about it that I was out of control. And those rules seem to be pretty important to me. However, I’m trying to overcome those tendencies. Sometimes those rules can get pretty specific (kind of like French Grammar – like this but only for 3 things, and the rest of the time it’s like this) and are sometimes pretty random, as my roommate will certainly attest to.

But the other thought that comes with this business about boundaries and safety is that if we are working to live a more authentic life, to live more in tune with the Higher Self, more in tune with that part of us not affected by the human condition, then shouldn’t we be letting go of those things? Shouldn’t we be letting go of that need for safety? When it boils down to it, does the soul actually need safety? Does the soul really need boundaries?

I don’t think it does. I think the soul is perfectly safe, despite dire threats to the contrary by so many groups out there. Granted, it is bound to the human body (no offense to non-humans here) but I don’t think it needs the extra boundaries. It’s the human ego and the human condition that needs them. The soul just needs to remember what it is.

Supposedly, the lives we live here are ones of learning, of illusion, as some put it, and not of actual “reality” (let’s not get to existential right now). The reality is that the soul is completely connected to Source, and is a piece of the Divine, of Source and safety is a human condition construct, just as is our experience here, on this earth. So, as part of Source, can the soul be damaged? Can Source be damaged?

In the bigger picture, no, I don’t think Source can be damaged. Can you hurt God? Can you hurt the Universal Energy, the Universal Love, that only loves and accepts unconditionally?

Are boundaries necessary, though? As humans, oh, yes, I think so. It’s kind of a mixed bag though, isn’t it? On one hand, do we need to have boundaries if we are all a part of Source, but we are taught, and I think rightly so, that boundaries are necessary for self-respect, and other things. But are those boundaries actually helping us to get clearer? To get closer to the Divine? In deciding to say no to something we don’t want to do, then that really is a step towards the Divine because we are trying to be happier and more at peace, the path to becoming more compassionate, and more of a divine vessel for light and love.

So, in setting boundaries, we set ourselves up to either be happy, or to be miserable and safe. I suppose the trick is to know the difference. And now we’re back to safety. Sometimes, I guess, since there is no way around having experiences where all of our boundaries may be tested, then we have to set the intent for ourselves that we set the boundaries that are the best for us and then hope for the best. And well, I suppose the truth is that the best is what each of us will get anyway, no matter how we go forward or what decisions we make – they are all the right choices.

I do work under the assumption that reality, as defined by books (I don’t know physics here, so I’m going with the simple definitions), is what you make of it. That each of us is a part of a larger piece and that piece, the soul, as we call it, chooses the life it wants to lead before it comes to this plane of existence, to Earth. And, as neutral beings of love (Universal Love Source Energy), then all manner of lifestyle and choice is a choice of love, a choice made without fear, without boundaries, for the experience. The boundaries come after we get here. So, in growth, we need to re-evaluate those boundaries on a regular basis and expand our definition of safety, or narrow it, depending on your outlook.

With Love and Light,
Jenn

Questions, comments? Email me at wyldvynes@yahoo.ca.

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The Wyld Vynes’ Guide to Manifestation

Hi all. It’s been an interesting week and it’s not even over yet!

As some of you may know, I have started applying for regular-type jobs. Office work or Customer Service where I can interact directly with the public and get that rush that always comes when you do that.

I still have one application outstanding – haven’t heard back yet about it (which is good – no news is good news as they say) but the other 3 have been turned down. One of them (we’ll call it Job A) I had thrown a great deal of energy into manifesting it for myself and was sure that I had felt that click that sometimes happens when you know you’ve hooked in what you aiming for.

Now, along with this there were a couple of negative thoughts (i.e. I really don’t want a full time job, or I don’t really want to have to get a job, maybe I’m overqualified, the money won’t be a lot, etc) but the postive, I think, much outweighed the negative. Since they say a positive thought has as much energy as a negative thought, then the outweighing of greater positive should surely have outweighed the minor negative, yes?

Question 1 : Can a single stray negative thought really blow everything out of the water?

Answer 1: Probably not, but this leads us to Question 2:

Is there such a thing as a single, stray negative thought about any single thing?

Answer 2: Urban Myth, anyone? Yes, my cynicism has reared its ugly head but I’m trying to figure it out too. Truly, it is unlikley. There are so many things floating through our heads, after years of life, and experience and believing what others say that it’s unlikely there is only a single negative thought pattern for any given topic.

That’s not to say that it can’t be overcome though; I have hope for myself, as I try to work at being more positive (it really is uplifting), and I have hope for you too. And there are all those people out there working to live a positive life.

Aside from the negative thought aspect, I’m thinking that maybe there’s a waiting line here too. I have been working to manifest a really cool job for the last little while; it is part time, pays me well, it’s flexible with a great working environment that is easy for me to get to (maybe it’s an online job …), it has great people working at it and it will let me use my creative skills and maybe even my healing and intution abilities a bit too. Ok, so maybe it sounds unlikely but if you can think it, you can make it happen, right? This is the power of positive thinking, the Law of Attraction, that little thing we call manifestation. And, actually, now that I think about it, I think I may have found that perfect job but I’ll have to think about it a bit more (well, maybe meditation would be a better idea).

But, to get back to the point, I’ve been putting out that I wanted this really cool job, but have also been manifesting (putting lots of positive energy into manifesting) a large sum of cash so I can not have to worry about the mundanities of life, like paying rent and putting gas in the car (yes, I have a car, I love my Lurch and I am far from perfect). In fact, I’m pretty sure I won that 43 million dollar 6/49 jackpot last month; unfortunately, I think it was in a different dimension. Maybe the one that’s attached by vortex to my butt. . . (long story)

So, maybe because I’ve been consistent in putting energy into those 2 things FIRST, before Job A even came along, then those things are what will manifest first. Maybe I’ll get Job A (or something like it) in 6 months or something. There’s still one more traditional job that I can experiment with so I’ll have to give that a shot.

Question 3: Is there a first come, first serve priority list when it comes to manifesting things?

Answer 3: Well, makes sense to me. Maybe . . . but I’m thinking it has more to do with how much positive energy you put into 1 or the other thing. Maybe because I’ve been focusing on the cool job and the cash for longer, the accumulative energy built up behind those things overcame that of the energy and intent put towards Job A.

Do I have any clue what I’m talking about? Well, maybe, maybe not. I’ve done some reading and listened to the Hicks/Abraham works and I do know that I can manifest things, if I really want them. I think I was better at it when I was a kid but I’m trying to clear out the programming and get to the positive stuff and work with that more.

And the positive thought thing really does work – I’ve even experienced it, it’s very uplifting, but more often that not it’s rather fleeting for most of us and all it takes is one little negative thing to happen to bring us down. In addition, I have the gift of being pragmatic and of seeing both sides of an issue so sometimes I get caught up in the details, like how will it happen and when, and of course, who may have issues with it.

This leads us to what seems to be Sure Thing 1:

After spending all that time and energy to manifest something, you then have to let it go. You need to release control of it by leaving open the details of how it happens, when it happens or what the actual details of it are. It’s called letting go of outcome, Huh.

Sounds contradictory doesn’t it? Yeah, it does. Don’t kid yourself. But if you work with the assumption (yes, the assumption) or if you’d rather, premise, that the Universe works to provide you with not only what you want (manifest) but the method of its development that is in your highest good, then you have to trust the Universe (and yourself) that it will provide the item, the opportunity, the doorway, to what you really want in the manner that is most suitable for you.

Yeah, that’s a tough one too. But I like being positive, I feel better and things don’t knock me down so quickly and I can stay in my happy place (as my friend puts it) for a longer period of time. Faith is a very powerful thing and can get you through a lot, and yes, I’ve been there, am there and will always work to be there.

And time? Well, time is fluid, isn’t it, and only humans in this world, work with our time system. The Universe has a much different time framework (i.e. now or not now). Remember, trying to be positive here!!

So, I am working to be more postive, in not letting myself get caught up in the details, and in having faith that I can manifest what I want and need and that the Universe will provide it in the way and the time that is best for me. It’s hard but the end result certainly seems to be worth it.

Now, where is that lottery ticket?

With love and light,

Jenn

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What’s the scoop for 2009? Living an Authentic life.

Well, here it is.  2009.  Where on earth did it come from?  It certainly seems like time is moving faster than ever before and I think the physicists are trying to prove it – something to do with the universe shrinking??  Who knows.  I failed Physics in University – I always had a hard time believe that the desk pushed back.  Of course, now that I’m more enlightened (heehee) I’m willing to accept the desk pushing back.

So, time is moving faster.  I think.  Maybe I’m just having more fun – which is true too.  Now that I’ve come in to my own (reality, gifts, passions) life is more interesting.

For 2009, I did a little bit of channeling and asked the guides what is going on.  I got a fair bit but one of the main themes was living an authentic life.  I did a card reading with a friend on New Year’s Day as well and she got the same message, and did some healing last week as well and got the same message so I gather it’s a pretty big deal.

Live an authentic life.  What does that mean?  That means living in our truth, no longer accepting things because it’s easier than not to but to actually look at our lives and see what we’re unhappy about and where we’re unhappy and fix it or at least acknowledge it – something a lot of us don’t do because the alternative is – well, what will I do?  How will I pay the bills.  But the catch is, in acknowledging our truth, our unhappiness if that is the case, also means we now have to do something about it.

Is it easy?  No, it’s not.  It’s damned scary – believe me.  I quit my job in May; it was a nice little company but I wasn’t happy there, I didn’t like me there and they weren’t happy with me either although my work was always pretty good but that wasn’t enough.  I was getting bad headaches that were lasting 2 and 3 days at a time and finally, I said enough. I didnt’ know how I was going to pay the bills, or what I was going to do but I knew that I was going to give notice, and for the first time in a very very long time, I was going to actually quit my job and not get laid off from it.  So I did.

I went in and talked to the boss, a great guy, and he said, well, let’s see what we can do to help you.  And he did: they gave me work for the first 2 months and kept me in rent money and then it tricked off a bit but I started temping and so on to where I am now.  I don’t get much work from them anymore but they’re with the oil industry so it’s a bit slow right now. And that’s okay.

Don’t get me wrong, there have been tough times, but I would rather be stressed about money and focusing on what’s important to me than feeling like I’m dying and losing myself every time I  get out of bed or walk into the office.

Looking at your truth does create a new level of awareness.  It does mean setting new priorities and it does mean that we can’t go back. Once you’ve seen the light and found even a bit of happiness, it’s kind of hard to go back to hell.

So, how do you get through it? Day by day, minute by minute and with faith.  You have to do it with the faith that if you are following what makes you happy that you can manifest situations you need to make ends meet to continue following your bliss – or finding your happiness. To manifest you have to be postive in setting your intent.  No worrying about how to pay the bills until you’re up against the wall (?? what??? I don’t know how to answer that one) but to get through, manifest the situation you want – the positive outcome you want by not accepting anything else but the postive outcome and not focusing on what you don’t have but what you do have and on what you want and in not defining how you want it.

For example, if you want money, ask for money and let go of how it will come to you.  Don’t limit the options of how money can come to you by only saying I need to get a job or more hours.  I do readings, healings, admin work, and work as a temp.  I can also shovel walks, get lottery tickets and have old relatives who may die and parents and friends.  They all have money – so money can come in many different ways.  So, don’t limit how the money gets to you – just ask for it to come and the opportunity to make it come if necessary.

The guide entity call Abraham, whom Esther Hicks channels for compares it to swimming in a river.  When you are out of alignment with truth, with what makes you happy, you are swimming upstream, and making things more difficult.  When you’re on your path and living in truth, you are swimming downstream.

Remember physics again?  Like attracts like.  If you’re positive you’ll attract positive and vice versa.  Think negative and it will come. Try it with parking sometime.  It might not work the first time but it will eventually.  I will get a great parking space.  And bear in mind, it might relative – only 20 cars away from teh door rather than 50.  It’s relative.  and as you stay postiive and get stronger at putting out those vibes, you’ll be able to get really good parking.  Just try it – it does work.

Do I have all the answers and have it all worked out? Nope.  But I’m working on it and it is a struggle every day.  I spent the whole month of December worrying about how much money I didn’t have rather than writing articles and doing what I do like to do adn enjoying the time off.  I was broke for the month and had to take some other measures to pay the rent.  I didn’t believe.  But I’m working on it now and I’ve already made more money in these first 5 days of January than I did the entirety of last month.  It does work.  And I’m proving it, a little at a time, both to myself and to anyone who wants to listen or read about it.

An authentic life.  It’s easier once you overcome your fear, your doubt, all the inborn training and belief systems that we’re raised with and your ego.  But unfortunately, part of the human condition is that if it’s too easy, we don’t believe it’s worth it.  The truth is that is should all be easy.

The universe moves in mysterious ways.  Make the mystery yours and follow your truth.

With love and light,

Jenn

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