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My Final Frontier: October 25, 2009


I haven’t changed any of my eating habits, per se, I am trying to eat more fruit and veggies, and thanks to my roommate, that is easier, because she is willing to help me with it.   I did start working out once I got back from my vacation as i was already on a roll – I don’t have stairs at my place but where I was staying back east (Ontario, where I’m originally from) at my mom’s and at my sister’s, they have full stairs – upstairs and down so I ended up in better shape when I got back from vacation than when I left.  So i thought i’d try and keep up the momentum.

My roommate has a little stepper that she uses to work out with and has very kindly allowed me its use (along with the exercise DVD) and while I haven’t put a lot of thought into what I’m going to do for a regular exercise regime, I do know that while I like working out, I don’t really like gyms (unless there is a pool) and i do like walking. So, no firm plans yet but I worked out on Wednesday and Friday for about 20 minutes adn walked today for about 30 minutes.  In my mind, this is all good.

What I didn’t anticipate in this whole process, and totally forgot about and frankly decided to ignore and tell it to go back to work . . . is my left knee.

Yes, my left knee.  I had it scoped 3 times in the space of 10 years, i think, the last time was 5 years ago.  I think.  Yes, 5 years ago.  The last time i had it fixed, they told me the next time would probably be an ACL replacement (ligament reconstruction).  Not something I’m really keen on, frankly, I’ve heard the stories.  However, in the last few months (year?), I’ve noticed that as I’ve changed my way of thinking around to being more positive, and letting go of all my old habits (still working on that one) that my knee has been making itself heard – literally.  When i bend it, it sounds like little ball bearings all scraping together.  And, since I started working out again, it’s started slipping again – the knee, or cap, has been slipping and jerking and catching and causing a great deal of pain.

So, I need to tap on this – do my EFT thing for it so I can heal it but I’m not sure exactly what it was that was going on.  So, I pulled out my trusty Louise Hay “You Can Heal Your Life” graphic version reference to injuries and illnesses and their causes and lo and behold . . . what does the knee represent you ask, perhaps with doubt in your voice . . .

Well, it’s a multileveled answer:

Joints represent our ability to move forward and knees are about pride and ego and knee problems are about inflexibility, fear, stubbornly holding on to the old crap. Ha.  Ha!

I am ashamed and my ego is taking a hit, as is my pride.  First of all that I couldn’t do this or figure this out myself, or motivate myself. I am an intelligent human being and I’ve put off for years what any logical and intelligent person would have addressed years ago.

Well, thank god for emotions.  I am, as are we all, an emotional being. 

So,  I “knee”d to get over myself and forgive myself for being human.  Geez. I’m sure I”m the only one who has this issue too.  LOL

With love and light





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The Odyssey

There is something freeing and life defining, or releasing, about getting your hair done.  And I do mean done, not just cut, or washed, or trimmed, or having your colour touched up (although that washing sure is lovely). By done, I mean re-designed.  And it doesn’t have to be majorly radical but it might be highlights in a different colour or using a completely different colour altogether, or the classic – actually cutting your hair! And I don’t imagine it’s just women who feel that way;  I imagine men feel that way too sometimes, although it may not be about a haircut.

I realized this the other day when I was sitting at work waiting to go and get my hair done.  My hair has been pretty low maintenance the last few years – home colour and trims as it was long with perm in it and I didn’t need to do much but trim out the perm as I cut it shorter.  But I also hadn’t made that much effort to find a new stylist as my old hair stylist who, for 6 or 7 years, knew me and my hair very well, left the province a few years ago (which sucked but I understood).   Her move sort of started the whole growing out process and frankly the move into the lowest maintenance hair I could get.

But I decided, partly in anticipation of summer, partly out of boredom, partly out of annoyance about my roots showing and not wanting to colour it again myself, that I need to get my hair done.  I was also thinking I would just do a trim on my hair, maybe add a few layers but nothing major.  And I’ve been known for major hair changes in the past.

All day though, as I waited until 245, I was kinda down.  It felt like something was ending and I was feeling kind of sad about it. Rather sentimental, I suppose, and frankly , very nervous as I’d never been to this particular before (although she came highly recommended) as I was having something major done (layers cut in, at least, and this too can go badly, believe me).  However, luckily, the ladies I was working with distracted me a bit near the end so it came quickly without too many nerves;  I even entered the chopping block a titch late.

So, after this and that, 2 hours later, there I was looking at myself in the mirror.  The stylist had reassured me when I initially went in as she told me she had been thinking about my colour the night before and what we should do.  So, there I was, done.  The hair was red, the shape was similar to what I had had, there were millions of layers in it, the style was funky and hip, and I thought, I’m back.

So, what did I discover through my hair odyssey?  I have high maintenance hair.  And the funky bright sytle and colour are actually a refelction of me, as well.  And although I really like low maintenance hair (a subjective classificaiton, belive me)  I suppose it’s also a reflection that I believe am worth the work and that I do deserve to look good. Translation, I deserve good things and am worthy of them as well.

So, kids, what do you need to do to remind you that you’re worth it and that you deserve all the good things the universe has to offer?

With love and light,


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Monday, April 13

Well, as usual, I had a topic but forgot about it. Oh, well, I’m sure we’ll get something out of this one.
Hope everyone had a good Easter – I know mine was busy cooking and getting lots of things done so I didn’t get as much downtime as I would have liked. Oh, well. But this does remind me of a topic . . .

Last week was the full moon (9th) and of course, Easter. Easter, no matter your religion or beliefs, is about rising – a new rising, as something greater than before. When there is that much energy surrounding an event, it does spill out and create it’s own history, without even the people attached – or so I believe. It’s like a tidal wave, I guess. Also, like a self-fulfilling prophecy – the more you try not to think about something, the more it comes to you; or the more people believe in something, the more likely it is to happen.

Anyway, I was talking to a few people last week and was noticing how fast things were moving around in my own schedule. And what was interesting was that almost everyone I spoke to talked about something changing – something big changing, and shifting. Whether it was moving homes, breaking up, getting ready to start another job, moving to be more dedicated to looking after themselves, etc. Everyone was talking about it. I felt it too – aside from some job opportunities that came up (not followed through yet on everything), I could feel a balance beginning – like something settling into place (the image I had was of a pendulum coming back and settling at center). Balance is always something I’ve had to work for – and now that I’ve been doing lots of healing on myself, I’m beginning to feel, and see, that I have it.

On top of the Full Moon, and the Rising (the Phoenix), the new starts, there is 2009 – as the astrologers will say – something about Capricorn and moving forward (I don’t know for sure – you’ll have to talk to an astrologist) but as much as the moves have started – finding meaning in one’s life, and making time for more significant things, people are continuing to grow and expand their awareness and it’s very exciting to see.

So, my advice to you is, if you’re shifting, and you are changing, and you’re not sure what’s going on, take some quiet time, do some slow deep breathing with some nice music in a comfortable position, connect to your Higher Self (your soul, without the human condition attached) and ask what is going on. Is it in your best interests, even though it’s scary as all hell? Yes, it is. So, take a deep breath, and hold on for the ride. Trust that you’ve set up your life for yourself the way it will best serve you to learn those lessons and grow. And if you’re blocking – find a healer, or ask for healing from your guides and angels, and ask them to move out any blockages, quickly, smoothly, and most of all, gently. They will help. You are never alone, so ask them to show you they are with you, too; be patient with that though – it takes time to see differently.

You will get through this, just as we all will.

With love and light,

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The Wyld Vynes’ Guide to Manifestation

Hi all. It’s been an interesting week and it’s not even over yet!

As some of you may know, I have started applying for regular-type jobs. Office work or Customer Service where I can interact directly with the public and get that rush that always comes when you do that.

I still have one application outstanding – haven’t heard back yet about it (which is good – no news is good news as they say) but the other 3 have been turned down. One of them (we’ll call it Job A) I had thrown a great deal of energy into manifesting it for myself and was sure that I had felt that click that sometimes happens when you know you’ve hooked in what you aiming for.

Now, along with this there were a couple of negative thoughts (i.e. I really don’t want a full time job, or I don’t really want to have to get a job, maybe I’m overqualified, the money won’t be a lot, etc) but the postive, I think, much outweighed the negative. Since they say a positive thought has as much energy as a negative thought, then the outweighing of greater positive should surely have outweighed the minor negative, yes?

Question 1 : Can a single stray negative thought really blow everything out of the water?

Answer 1: Probably not, but this leads us to Question 2:

Is there such a thing as a single, stray negative thought about any single thing?

Answer 2: Urban Myth, anyone? Yes, my cynicism has reared its ugly head but I’m trying to figure it out too. Truly, it is unlikley. There are so many things floating through our heads, after years of life, and experience and believing what others say that it’s unlikely there is only a single negative thought pattern for any given topic.

That’s not to say that it can’t be overcome though; I have hope for myself, as I try to work at being more positive (it really is uplifting), and I have hope for you too. And there are all those people out there working to live a positive life.

Aside from the negative thought aspect, I’m thinking that maybe there’s a waiting line here too. I have been working to manifest a really cool job for the last little while; it is part time, pays me well, it’s flexible with a great working environment that is easy for me to get to (maybe it’s an online job …), it has great people working at it and it will let me use my creative skills and maybe even my healing and intution abilities a bit too. Ok, so maybe it sounds unlikely but if you can think it, you can make it happen, right? This is the power of positive thinking, the Law of Attraction, that little thing we call manifestation. And, actually, now that I think about it, I think I may have found that perfect job but I’ll have to think about it a bit more (well, maybe meditation would be a better idea).

But, to get back to the point, I’ve been putting out that I wanted this really cool job, but have also been manifesting (putting lots of positive energy into manifesting) a large sum of cash so I can not have to worry about the mundanities of life, like paying rent and putting gas in the car (yes, I have a car, I love my Lurch and I am far from perfect). In fact, I’m pretty sure I won that 43 million dollar 6/49 jackpot last month; unfortunately, I think it was in a different dimension. Maybe the one that’s attached by vortex to my butt. . . (long story)

So, maybe because I’ve been consistent in putting energy into those 2 things FIRST, before Job A even came along, then those things are what will manifest first. Maybe I’ll get Job A (or something like it) in 6 months or something. There’s still one more traditional job that I can experiment with so I’ll have to give that a shot.

Question 3: Is there a first come, first serve priority list when it comes to manifesting things?

Answer 3: Well, makes sense to me. Maybe . . . but I’m thinking it has more to do with how much positive energy you put into 1 or the other thing. Maybe because I’ve been focusing on the cool job and the cash for longer, the accumulative energy built up behind those things overcame that of the energy and intent put towards Job A.

Do I have any clue what I’m talking about? Well, maybe, maybe not. I’ve done some reading and listened to the Hicks/Abraham works and I do know that I can manifest things, if I really want them. I think I was better at it when I was a kid but I’m trying to clear out the programming and get to the positive stuff and work with that more.

And the positive thought thing really does work – I’ve even experienced it, it’s very uplifting, but more often that not it’s rather fleeting for most of us and all it takes is one little negative thing to happen to bring us down. In addition, I have the gift of being pragmatic and of seeing both sides of an issue so sometimes I get caught up in the details, like how will it happen and when, and of course, who may have issues with it.

This leads us to what seems to be Sure Thing 1:

After spending all that time and energy to manifest something, you then have to let it go. You need to release control of it by leaving open the details of how it happens, when it happens or what the actual details of it are. It’s called letting go of outcome, Huh.

Sounds contradictory doesn’t it? Yeah, it does. Don’t kid yourself. But if you work with the assumption (yes, the assumption) or if you’d rather, premise, that the Universe works to provide you with not only what you want (manifest) but the method of its development that is in your highest good, then you have to trust the Universe (and yourself) that it will provide the item, the opportunity, the doorway, to what you really want in the manner that is most suitable for you.

Yeah, that’s a tough one too. But I like being positive, I feel better and things don’t knock me down so quickly and I can stay in my happy place (as my friend puts it) for a longer period of time. Faith is a very powerful thing and can get you through a lot, and yes, I’ve been there, am there and will always work to be there.

And time? Well, time is fluid, isn’t it, and only humans in this world, work with our time system. The Universe has a much different time framework (i.e. now or not now). Remember, trying to be positive here!!

So, I am working to be more postive, in not letting myself get caught up in the details, and in having faith that I can manifest what I want and need and that the Universe will provide it in the way and the time that is best for me. It’s hard but the end result certainly seems to be worth it.

Now, where is that lottery ticket?

With love and light,


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