I haven’t changed any of my eating habits, per se, I am trying to eat more fruit and veggies, and thanks to my roommate, that is easier, because she is willing to help me with it. I did start working out once I got back from my vacation as i was already on a roll – I don’t have stairs at my place but where I was staying back east (Ontario, where I’m originally from) at my mom’s and at my sister’s, they have full stairs – upstairs and down so I ended up in better shape when I got back from vacation than when I left. So i thought i’d try and keep up the momentum.
My roommate has a little stepper that she uses to work out with and has very kindly allowed me its use (along with the exercise DVD) and while I haven’t put a lot of thought into what I’m going to do for a regular exercise regime, I do know that while I like working out, I don’t really like gyms (unless there is a pool) and i do like walking. So, no firm plans yet but I worked out on Wednesday and Friday for about 20 minutes adn walked today for about 30 minutes. In my mind, this is all good.
What I didn’t anticipate in this whole process, and totally forgot about and frankly decided to ignore and tell it to go back to work . . . is my left knee.
Yes, my left knee. I had it scoped 3 times in the space of 10 years, i think, the last time was 5 years ago. I think. Yes, 5 years ago. The last time i had it fixed, they told me the next time would probably be an ACL replacement (ligament reconstruction). Not something I’m really keen on, frankly, I’ve heard the stories. However, in the last few months (year?), I’ve noticed that as I’ve changed my way of thinking around to being more positive, and letting go of all my old habits (still working on that one) that my knee has been making itself heard – literally. When i bend it, it sounds like little ball bearings all scraping together. And, since I started working out again, it’s started slipping again – the knee, or cap, has been slipping and jerking and catching and causing a great deal of pain.
So, I need to tap on this – do my EFT thing for it so I can heal it but I’m not sure exactly what it was that was going on. So, I pulled out my trusty Louise Hay “You Can Heal Your Life” graphic version reference to injuries and illnesses and their causes and lo and behold . . . what does the knee represent you ask, perhaps with doubt in your voice . . .
Well, it’s a multileveled answer:
Joints represent our ability to move forward and knees are about pride and ego and knee problems are about inflexibility, fear, stubbornly holding on to the old crap. Ha. Ha!
I am ashamed and my ego is taking a hit, as is my pride. First of all that I couldn’t do this or figure this out myself, or motivate myself. I am an intelligent human being and I’ve put off for years what any logical and intelligent person would have addressed years ago.
Well, thank god for emotions. I am, as are we all, an emotional being.
So, I “knee”d to get over myself and forgive myself for being human. Geez. I’m sure I”m the only one who has this issue too. LOL
With love and light